I feel so much better than I did Sunday. Maybe it was the adoption, maybe it was just my feelings, but nonetheless I feel better.
It is official, Gary has adopted me and I have taken his last name to signify he is my father. My parents laugh a little, for I chose to also keep my other name-Bates, making my full name Jessa Christine Bates-Pyne. I love it. It shows everything about me. Every syllable represents so many different memories. Old ones and new ones that have yet to be made. Only one more name to go before I will stop changing my name... one more!
In other news I started my new job this week. I am grateful to be on such a wonderful team. Heavenly Father has most definitely blessed me. Monday was a free day, and I went Snow shoeing with my best friend. He is so good to me, how he is in my life still I fail to see, but as long as he is being helplessly foolish I won't inform him!
I am slightly worried about balancing everything. And about next year... what about scholarships, what about money, what about mission? I suppose I am just in the same boat as everyone else around this time... classes have set in and I am ready to be done... ALREADY.
Lately it has been hard to feel anything. I do not know why this is. Some months or periods of my life I feel so much. Right now I do not feel anything, no severe ups or downs. I like and I do not like. Emotions over change or love cease to make me want to do anything. I do not know if this is complacency or just a period of my life I hope it is neither. The ability to feel has always been when I have strengthened my testimony. I have always heard that you are either loosing your testimony or gaining it, I do not know where I am at. I feel like I am doing everything right, so maybe it is that I am gaining it but not realizing it? Something I will have to think about I suppose.
P.S.: what a great quote from P+P
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