I have had such a great day, I was busy to be sure... but my day was good. Then it hit me. I was suddenly blatantly and completely upset. My emotional swing was dramatic within itself. I felt crazy. Not in a good way. I wonder if other girls feel this way, a sudden mind altering change that has you walking away from the people you enjoy.
“How despicably I have acted!"I feel lost but lost with a purpose. Maybe I am just nervous about what is to come. I have been blessed beyond belief, but I worry that my new schedule might leave me to suddenly give less to the things currently in my life. Will things stay the same if I am not making a 300% effort?
Hard to say..."I, who have prided myself on my discernment" have found myself wondering if I have made any wise decisions as of late.
In other news all of my friends received their mission calls! My best friend is going to Washington. I am so proud of her and her willingness to serve. Her influence has made a grand impression upon my life and I strive to be more faithful like her.
Family is good, and roommates are wonderful like usual. I have a new roommate, Gema.. she is wonderful and bright. Her smile brightens my day!
I really am so blessed to have the Gospel in my life. I have not been hard on myself lately about getting into a good place. I know with surety I need to be better. What I am giving is simply not good enough, and the left over needs to be better! Hopefully balance will come again, and I can dispel these terrible feelings!
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