“And what am I to do on the occasion? -- It seems an hopeless business.”

Sorry it has been so long!  I have been spending my time writing my missionaries instead of blogging.  It hasn't helped that life has been so crazy, but thats ok since I love the busy-ness. My calling is great, and it keeps me really busy.  I always feel like I could do more, but trying to not fail out of statistics, organ, and IHUM while working two jobs doesn't exactly pan out to being the easiest.  

I have been doing  a lot of thinking on compatibility (hence the quote for today).   I realized as I was up at the Cabin that there only needs to be a couple of major differences to lead to failing relationships.  I also realized that due to random chance (or maybe not so random) that no one can really gage what is going on inside.  For example, I feel like I am a complete train wreck.  I feel bamboozeled and silly, and yet guys still seem to flirt and ask me on dates.  WHY? I feel like I have a big sign written on my head screaming-- "I'm a complete basket case! Can't you see???"

I only have a couple more weeks before spring semester is over.  It can't come quick enough if you ask me.   I just have to survive. Come this fall I will be a senior! I have been looking at my opportunities to expand my resume and get me into grad school (I don't think my grades are going to cut it..).  Thus, as soon as class ends I am going to go volunteer at the museum behind the Riv.  I also think I am going to sign a contract at the Riv.  I really want to room with Julie, but I don't think we can both find a place that works for both of us, its sad but it will be ok.  I am going to try and talk to the manager at the Riv. and see if I can get an RA job to cut down rent costs.  Three jobs might be a little much.. we will see.  I am also going to apply to the Washington Seminar because the humanities program has a freaking awesome scholarship to go.  I figure why not?

My parents are going to Seattle soon and I am bummed out that I cannot go. If only they were going one week later.  ONE WEEK! I have not been feeling good as of late, I'm not really sure why, but I keep getting nasty headaches and have a hard time eating. Hopefully it will mellow out the less stress I encounter. 

I found this picture on pinterest with the quote attached, "You can live on the front row, or the third row, it is your choice."