“I am all astonishment.” Mr. Bennett

Today has been a whirlwind of a day.  Not only did I go from place to place, but during it all I definitely felt the spirit so strong! 

I started of my day curling my hair at o'dark thirty.  I have been pinteresting lately and looking for new ways to do my hair, but yet I am too scared to actually follow through with anything I have seen- so I struck to my old ways of curling.  I then drove to Lehi to listen to a good friends farewell.  He is a complete sweetheart and has always influenced me for the better.  The sacrament meeting was amazing and I did end up becoming a little teary eyed.  Although I have seen my friends start leaving I guess this farewell was a little bit sad because everyone is back in Lehi while I am here in Provo, but that is okay because that is life.   It comes and the future always looks to be bright.

Because I have moved apartments I wanted to go to my church back in Provo which didn't start until 11, just to meet the few new people (everyone else moves in Monday so next week so I will know if I have new roommates by then).  On my drive down I received a call asking to play the piano for sacrament meeting.  I admit it was hard to come up with songs off the top of my head, and so I went with the first numbers that came to mind.  The actually playing wasn't too great, due to the lack of a visible conductor and my first experience actually playing for so many people. 

The rest of church was amazing and really spiritual.  I felt the spirit so strong.  After church I had a meeting with the Bishop and the councilors.  I have received a couple new callings and I am excited for the possibilities and challenges the following months can and will bring.  My meeting with the Bishop was always good, and I admit I left feeling much better about everything.  As of late I have been feeling so down and unworthy, and Satan has just been pounding me with all my insecurities.  I went to the temple and decided the best person to see was my Bishop to help me feel better.  Upon entering the room it was determined I would receive a Priesthood blessing.  As the Bishopric laid their hands upon my head I felt completely safe, whole, and like me again.  

After retuning home and being locked out of my apartment due to misinformation from management, I finally had some time to sit down and think about my day.  I know the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day saints is true.  "I am all astonishment." The Gospel has done so much for me and I am eternally grateful.  Without the church's guiding hands I would fall to the dark world and not be able to stand.  So today I am all amazed.  I am all astonishment.  The church is everything and more!

“Every savage can dance.” Lizzie

As one chapter closes, it seems another one opens.  The ideas of the future seem to penetrate every dark crack within the crevices of my mind.  I am excited beyond belief.  I feel like a little girl again to some extent, although one with the ideas and dreams of Thoreau to live deliberately.  I have loved this semester in almost every possible way.  The days and classes have given me a better idea of who I am and what I want to be.  I feel as if the rays of knowledge are suddenly encapsulating me to be more and to see more.

So why the dance quote?  Movement.  This is why! I have been trying to understand the concept of living in the physical form.  As humans we beat, tick, and gasp against the world around us.  Every moment one of our muscles move, we tick on without a second thought and the miraculous workings of the body.  I guess I am so grateful for the ability to move and the ability to learn.  This semester has given me the opportunity to be more grateful for everything around me.  I am so glad I made the decision to go to BYU.  It really has changed my life.

In other news I have decided I will be throwing a Tea Party, Mormon style- which means less tea and more lemonade, but its the thought that counts.  I am thinking big hats, big dresses, and maybe even gloves.  Optional buy in for sandwiches?   Either way I plan on it being worthwhile. 

I don't know what the future holds, but I can't wait to dance into its potential. 

“I must learn to be content with being happier than I deserve.”

And so it is. I am so grateful for the opportunities I have to learn and grow and the ability I have to be resilient. It has been a long long time since I have been mortified... But you know what? That's ok. I remember how much I love me- and how much I deserve. I am trying my best to be my best and I wouldn't have it any other way. The ability to give my all to things has always been a wonderful quality and I am most grateful to have it not fail me now.

Always remember that Heavenly Father cares. He is mindful of your needs and pain. He will carry you through any physical, spiritual, or emotional trial you have. I testify of this as I suffer the stomach flu amongst other crappy things . Trust in him and it will all work out. It will be ok.